Gay... to Come Out or Not to Come Out!

Now I know first hand the head ache of having to "Come out the closet" shoot even admitting to yourself that you aren't as straight as you thought you were. It's a process damn it! anyway this was all brought to my attention by this email I received ( all names will be made up for the sake of you know...not putting ones business out there lol wouldn't want someone to go up to someone talking about OMG I JUST HEARD YOUR GAY!!!! 0.0)



Email From a Friend of mine:

First Charles orientation said Gay then Bob asked him about it and Charles said it was a joke he changed it back to straight. 4 months later I go on and now it says hes not sure

To me that means he is gay and I don’t see the big deal?



Why is this a big deal for the guy? well because its a big deal...see when you realize "Ok I'm gay and there is no way of changing" the next step is FEAR FOR YOUR DAMN LIFE! Your scared...scared of being accepted by your family and friends and scared of how much your life will change... your family might shun or dis own you and your friends will be like" OMG now they are going to be attracted to me (even if they look like a monstar..somehow just bc your the same sex...us gay are attracted to ALL SAME SEXes!umm no honey!). You don't know if they will change on you. So you struggle with the idea of actually letting people know that YOU FINALLY REALIZED (accepted) that your as gay as Richard Simmons! You know the exercise guy that cries at every USE-To-Be-Obese persons story of losing weight? yeah that guy FLAMING!
Anyway its a a big deal to us gays because we are scared of the consequences of coming out. Its hard. Before I admitted that I was gay or not STRAIGHT, I struggled with it for YEARS! Convincing myself that I wasn't gay and it was all apart of puberty and figuring out who I am as a woman...yeah well puberty came and went but my attraction to women NEVER LEFT in fact it grew! LOL I'm telling you people would be like OMG HE IS SOO CUTE and I would be looking at the girl next to him! lol
Going through life pretty much lying to myself and everyone else I knew...its a HUGE weight that you carry on your shoulders...especially when people think your gay anyway! HUGE PINK ELEPHANT IN THE ROOM!!!
When I finally came out good lord that was tough! But I got through it! Lucky for me my parents have accepted me and love me either way, actually I JUUUUUST came out to my father Last week LOL Ive been out since I was 19, now 23. But once I came out it was a huge relief! some people I have remained friends with and became even closer, some were like" OH LORD WE ALREADY KNEW THAT A! GEEZ JUST WAITING ON YOU TO COME OUT!" actually my mom said the same thing! LOL and other friends and family have become distant and since lost all connection. It happens lucky for me though Most of the people I cared about didn't care at all.
so for this guy all I can say is I understand completely and my fellow gay, not sure or exploring buddy...do you, stay true to you and if your gay your gay...if not than your just finding yourself...remember Sexuality is Fluid...there is no BLACK AND WHITE there are plenty shades of grey...shoot I am like ten shades of grey! LOL Peace and Hair Grease peoples!