My weekend!

This weekend ended up being quite and interesting weekend. I proved to myself on two occasions that I can truly be around people and not feel compelled to drink myself in to a blackout! No I am not an alcoholic but sometimes I party a little to hard and it gets me in trouble (to say the least) so with a few incidents occurring these past few months I took it upon myself to take hold of the madness and fix where I go wrong when I do party. And This weekend I did it! I am very proud of myself especially since I know that some people were doubting me. I know that they probably thought "yeah...here goes another promise that will be broken...just more bullshitting from Aeleen" so by the end of both nights I was sober and it felt great! who knew being sober could feel so good! I was excited!
Other than that though I attended a BBQ and saw some people I haven't seen in a bit...it was nice seeing them too. And I was pretty excited to show them that I am turning over a new leaf...it was a good weekend especially since I got to talk a few things out and see the people I have been missing for some time. Absence makes the heart grow fonder...as gay as that sounds but its pretty true. I have a new appreciation for my close friends and family after this weekend and I feel very blessed and feel like I am finally one step closer to being a little happier in my life and with myself.
Sunday was an especially great day because my dad and I finally got one step closer to having a better relationship. He finally knows that I am gay and although he doesn't really know everything about my life, he finally knows a major part that he was unaware of. I didn't tell him directly because I was too much of a punk to do it. So my mom did it for me and when i saw my dad we didn't really say to each other " yeah i know mom told you", "yeah your mom told me your gay" but we didn't have to, we both knew what we knew and we just hugged it out and said our "I love yous" and started play fight just like we use to when I was a little kid...I was getting my ass kicked, just like I use to when I was a little kid, lol! Josiah had to come and save me! LOL
then we hugged it out again. I finally feel like another huge weight was lifted off my shoulders... I can finally feel like I don't have to lie to my dad about who I am anymore and that is a huge relief. Although our relationship still has a lot more to overcome this is a huge step and I am so grateful and thankful that my parents are as supportive and understanding as they are. I have learned that its not easy at all to be a parent and they (like so many others) have made their mistakes, some of which I have yet to truly forgive, but I know that they are trying the best way they know how to make things right. Which means that I have to try harder to understand them and actually make more of an effort to be around.
All in all after this weekend I feel pretty grateful and blessed. So a big thank you to the man upstairs for letting me see that my life isn't always going in the shitter! LOL peace out SON!