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"I hope you read every line... to this message
in these trying time...baby we gon make it
In the midnight hour when you sleep do you dream of me?
In the midnight hour when you creep do you think of me?"

I was pretty bored at work today so I started going over my inbox...looking at old sent messages. I went all the way back to 06. I didn't even know it would save so much! Anyway as I read through these old messages I realized how much I have grown as a person.
It's funny how you can look back at the situations you were in and the relationships you were in and think to yourself

"wow...I can't believe I went through all that" , " I can't believe I put up with all that"

but when your in the moment its a completely different story. You feel as though you have to make it work, you have to fix it. Your blind to the fact that you shouldn't feel like you have to do anything...feelings get in the way of logic and finding the real solution, the best solution. Only when you get though it, move on and let time pass can you really see how easy it all could have been, how dumb you were for staying and fast you really should of left.
There is no point in saying the shoulda coulda woulda's all you can really do is learn from everything. So after looking back, I can truly say that I feel that I have grown so much and learned so much since two years ago. That chapter in my life is finally closed and seems so far away that it almost seems surreal.